受着某些感官的疼痛。持续的，不间断的……疼……疼到指甲尖，疼到发丝分叉处。可是，却无法对任何人提及。

好在身边还有那个男人一直陪伴。见她精神状态一直欠佳，脸色苍白，眉眼冷清又多日吃不下饭、睡不着觉，只是望着父亲的遗像发呆。江子熙拿出了苏建林留给她的一本日记，从后往前翻开，最后一页上写有这样的一首英文诗：

I Had a Dream

One night I had a dream

I was walking along the beach with my Lord

Across the sky flashed scenes from my life.

For each scene I noticed two sets

of footprints in the sand,

one belonging to me

and the other to my Lord.

When the last scene of my life shot before me

I looked back at the footprints in the sand.

There was only on set of footprints.

I realized that this was at the lowest

and saddest times in my life.

This always bothered me

and I questioned the Lord

about my dilemma.

"Lord, you told me

when I decided to follow You ,

You would walk and talk with me all the way.

But I'm aware that during the most troublesome

times of my life there is only one set of footprints.

I don't understand why,

when I needed You most, you leave.”

He whispered, "My precious, precious child,

I love you and will never leave you

never, ever during your times of trial and testings.

When you saw only one set of footprints

It was then that I carried you."

翻译后的大致意思如下：